Sunday night was really rough. I had something I was thinking and working through and then about 11pm I had an RA emergency. Sarah and I didn't get to bed till 4am.
I knew I needed to go to Institute at 8am. I was exhausted but the second I walked in and felt the spirit in that building, tears sprung to my eyes.
I have never missed one class in my history here at SVU.
...But Feb 27 I didn't go to my classes. I physically couldn't think or emotionally cope with things. I was really shook up and so was everyone involved that night. The thing that gave me comfort was that Bishop Rasmussen informed me that "You came to Institute. Let that count for all your classes today." If Bishop can tell me that, than I am okay.
Instead of going to one of my classes I sat and talked to Bishop Rasmussen for about an hour and than got a blessing. Men are called of God. I walked into Institute and he knew something was wrong so he was the one that asked me what time I could come in and talk to him. He acted immediately. He always just sits and listens and most of the time I want him to just tell me what to do! But that would take away my agency and decisions.
God is good. He knew I needed some peace on somethings, and Tuesday I got that! I was sitting at lunch and I mumbled, "I just want to hear about EFY.." I opened my email and BAM!
AHHHH! I am going to be an EFY counselor this summer!!!!!!!
Wednesday I opened up Facebook and a memory popped up from two years ago. Its so funny to look at the picture and the people in that picture and see how gratefully I am for everyone but also how much times have changed. I love those people in that picture. And I like seeing the growth that each one has experienced but also the growth they have brought to my life.
God is also good because work got canceled on Wednesday!(for a giant thunderstorm that was suppose to hit...it never did) But I needed a day off so bad to try and get caught up on homework and sleep and laundry. It was such a blessing!
It also smelled like rain and was beautiful all morning!
Last big group meeting, all the Lofts RA's won RA of the month. We convinced them to let us go out to eat for our prize. So we rented a van and drove to Lynchburg to eat at Blaze Pizza. It was soo yummy! You design your own pizza and they cook it fast and its ready to eat. So good! We also ran through Target and got ice cream cones from McDonalds before we came back home and I cracked down on homework.
Cute things that you should ask a two year old to say:
-Ostrich
-Elephant
-New Zealand
-Gorilla
-Chimpanzee
-Brocoli
Friday I went to the SVU orchestra and band concert. They did a good job. My friend Joanna sang a gorgeous solo with the orchestra. She looked and sounded amazing!
I also made a stop at the sparkly girls concert.
Saturday I slept in and let me tell ya.. it was so wonderful! I woke up and went to lunch, then the lacrosse game, stopped at the tennis match, and then tried to work on some homework. I definitely should have been more successful in that area.
We were sitting at dinner and I randomly said, "We should all go get gelato." So thats what we did! We sat and ate gelato and discussed books. I haven't done that in so long! I was in heaven.
After gelato we went to the first SVU Mr. Congeniality. Basically it is a "beauty pagent" for guys. It was the weirdest night ever. HAHA! It was so random and all over the place! Highlights for me were Stockton coming out in a t-rex suit, the contestant that tried to get the audience to sing Man of La Mancha, the contestant whose talent was just random things including having two girls stand on stage blind folded.
So random!
This has been our winter.
I say it often, but Sundays are so great. Church was good today and then the CES missionaries assigned to my ward, the Buckleys, invited my presidency over for dinner. It was delicious! She even made three homemade pies! But really, I haven't had food that good in a really long time.
I was able to take an almost two hour nap. It was awesome! Im exhausted after this week!
I love talking to my family. Im glad they are mine forever.
Now enjoy Will's green face.
Life keeps going. If I could sum up this week in one word it would be 'think'. I've just sat and done a lot of thinking. Thinking about me, who I want to be, what I need, what i've lost. I've just thought and thought and thought. And I think that is what we are suppose to do. But I have a serious habit of overthinking to the point where it causes me stress. And I need to talk a step back. I can analyze my life all I want. And I do think you need to figure out who you are, but you also need to stop. God is in charge. If I am doing my part and believing in me, which includes sticking to my standards and not compromising on what I like and who I am, then I will be blessed. God fulfills all of his promises to his children and gives them ten more.
So I don't know what tomorrow holds. I don't know what people around me will say or do or effect me. I don't know what I need to do fully. I don't know what capacity some thing need to change or not. But I just keep going. And I need to keep trusting. Through that trust God will help me. This is not me sitting idly. Its praying, and doing, fasting, and hoping. Its moving forward always.
So don't give up.
Here's to hoping.
Keep going.
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